July 06, 2006
She makes me feel a tad relieved
I won't be alone the whole of tomorrow.
I need new slippers badly before the
rainy season decides to go against me.
And I'm gonna bust my card to sign
up for the fourth class.
I wonder if I'd be strong enough
to take the load and stress.
Today I almost got myself lost in
the neighbourhood I've been living
in for years.
It's just amazing.
Provision shops, bakeries, bubble tea
shops, DIY shops, coffee shops,
markets and everything else.
So many more reasons why I'd still
prefer staying in a HDB.
I think it'd soon be my new hideout.
I always seem to run there whenever
I don't feel like going home,
just to delay time, like today.
If not for the wet flooring,
I might have attempted to find
(and walk)my way home from there.
Someday I will.
It's a wonderful neighbourhood out there.
Just that some people wouldn't
appreciate it, just like I don't
appreciate the crap downstairs.
I'm not the type that lets go of things easily,
teach me, to be detached from it all.
It seems as if all that mattered has been there
since the beginning of my life.
But it just disappeared suddenly.
The main source gone, leaving traces,
with bits and pieces left, scattered everywhere.
And I can only say, come back please.
Or just disappear altogether and let me
cry till the day I lose my memory.
Go on your own, take away everything
else that remains here as you please.
I can't bear to take them away myself.
No, please let me be.
They're all that I'm left with.
And then I won't have a reason to live,
not even for a day, an hour, a minute
or maybe a second.
I want to runaway from it all.
Hush now. Why don't someone take me
far away from this world now?
I'm so tired I dare not sleep,
yet at the same time I'm so afraid -
afraid of waking.
Hmmmm. Long post but I feel so much better.
At least it's not an hour that wasted
as compared to crying for the same duration.
Crybaby. I've never cried this much my entire life.
Seems as if all that's written above was during
a state of trance, yet I know I wrote it all.
Tomorrow will be a better day.. I hope.
-nIx- @ [[11:44 PM]]
She makes me feel a tad relieved
I won't be alone the whole of tomorrow.
I need new slippers badly before the
rainy season decides to go against me.
And I'm gonna bust my card to sign
up for the fourth class.
I wonder if I'd be strong enough
to take the load and stress.
Today I almost got myself lost in
the neighbourhood I've been living
in for years.
It's just amazing.
Provision shops, bakeries, bubble tea
shops, DIY shops, coffee shops,
markets and everything else.
So many more reasons why I'd still
prefer staying in a HDB.
I think it'd soon be my new hideout.
I always seem to run there whenever
I don't feel like going home,
just to delay time, like today.
If not for the wet flooring,
I might have attempted to find
(and walk)my way home from there.
Someday I will.
It's a wonderful neighbourhood out there.
Just that some people wouldn't
appreciate it, just like I don't
appreciate the crap downstairs.
I'm not the type that lets go of things easily,
teach me, to be detached from it all.
It seems as if all that mattered has been there
since the beginning of my life.
But it just disappeared suddenly.
The main source gone, leaving traces,
with bits and pieces left, scattered everywhere.
And I can only say, come back please.
Or just disappear altogether and let me
cry till the day I lose my memory.
Go on your own, take away everything
else that remains here as you please.
I can't bear to take them away myself.
No, please let me be.
They're all that I'm left with.
And then I won't have a reason to live,
not even for a day, an hour, a minute
or maybe a second.
I want to runaway from it all.
Hush now. Why don't someone take me
far away from this world now?
I'm so tired I dare not sleep,
yet at the same time I'm so afraid -
afraid of waking.
Hmmmm. Long post but I feel so much better.
At least it's not an hour that wasted
as compared to crying for the same duration.
Crybaby. I've never cried this much my entire life.
Seems as if all that's written above was during
a state of trance, yet I know I wrote it all.
Tomorrow will be a better day.. I hope.
-nIx- @ [[11:44 PM]]
